文很長哦～晚上睡不著再看好像美賣（？）
前一陣子（好長一陣子之前啊！）
老師希望我們分享一下從初階到完成進階的心路歷程，我回想自己好像變了很多，真的要一項項回想，又好像缺少了什麼，剛好那陣子狀態處於低空飛過這樣，就是不到低潮，但是靈感是完全乾枯的狀態，所以一直無法下筆。
今天和朋友聊才發現，自己真的是哪邊不一樣了，完整的看到了。
當初是歡歡喜喜來上課然後期待自己像白雪公主一樣自由跟森林裡的動物對話唱歌，殊不知上課完全不是那麼一回事。
我想請還不能順暢做溝通的捧油先放下吧！
我還記得去上課之前的自己是把自己包裹得多緊，一點都不想認識老師跟任何一位同學，只想輕鬆上完課學會技巧自己回家練習，然後這些過客全部不再聯絡。
結果呢，根本一點也不輕鬆，為了要互相練習交流什麼的還是彼此加了臉書跟社團。
我很懶惰，但是為了跟我的貓咪說話不假他人之口，我每天做老師教的源療、呼吸、自由意志、自由書寫，每天跟老師同學靠邀我什麼都聽不到收不到，非常心急，一起上課的同學初階課後就順順利利，怎麼我什麼都沒有？只好不放棄的繼續源療、呼吸、自由意志、自由書寫，我是很好強的人，完全無法忍受自己起步比別人慢。（懶惰又好強，人生各種矛盾）
中階課很快的到來，我為了得到更多「技巧」而上課，下課後乖乖的每天做老師交辦的功課，每天張開眼第一件事就是把枕邊的筆記本拿出來自由書寫，有時候會寫出很奇妙的東西，有時候完全空白就開始亂畫圈或鬼畫符，和同學練習還是很卡，但是我越挫越努力，每天逼自己一定要做多久功課，有一次和朋友家狗狗做練習，因為意願確認時狗狗說的一句話，她跑去告訴全世界我超級厲害，同時給了我信心，也給了我很大的打擊。
因為輸不起的心態，我開始幻想全世界在嘲笑我，在等著我出糗，之後渡過了大概兩週的撞牆期，也在這時候內在小孩默默走出來哭泣，為什麼我有好多的憤怒和悲傷，自己一直以來都忽略他，永遠都用笑容把自己和外界隔離？
想起小時候自己經歷了多少的驚嚇和幻滅，世界不是童話裡寫的那樣，很多的遺憾跟怨恨，很多錯誤的選擇，很多的責怪自己，這些都吞進肚子裡了，我怎麼都不知道？
因為個案數不足，錯過了緊接而來的進階課，之後老師讓我苦等半年才又開課，但是我至今想來還是非常感激。
進階對我來說是「夢寐以求的療癒魔法」課，這些都是當初的美好幻想，半年裡我努力的累積個案，期待自己有個驕傲的數字和成果可以跟大家炫耀，殊不知一個個來到我面前的個案都是來幫助我的，和每個個案的課題共振，內在小孩用力哭，我用力發洩，生命裡一幕幕以為都忘記的事情原來都在我的心裡沒有離開過，開始感激這些經歷讓我成長，讓我成為今天的我，讓我受傷卻還是期待著希望。然後有一天，突然就聽到自己的貓咪說話了。
老師說，動物溝通，只是動物溝通課的附加價值，真正的價值在於找到自己，真的是一點都沒錯。
一直把目標和得失看得太重，模糊了身邊來來去去等著讓自己看到的答案，但是真正開始打開雙眼和心去覺察，真的很感動一切的顯化竟是來得如此不知不覺，但卻又是花了多少的努力才讓我看見的呢？
付出都不會白費，過去努力做的功課和用力撞的牆，之後都會一一回饋給自己，而且是十倍、百倍的回來，這些功課都在幫助自己學習認識自己、愛自己、進一步療癒自己，療癒的力量在努力當中已經默默顯現，從來不是什麼神秘的魔法。
學習動物溝通之後我的人生跨出了很多以前不敢跨的步伐，這些事情說出來，可能不一樣生命歷程的人會覺得是很平常的小事，比如邀請朋友到自己家玩， 對我來說卻是赤裸裸的打開自己任人窺探。
進階課之後會有什麼神秘的事情發生嗎？
答案是沒有，因為奇蹟和驚喜一直都在你我身邊。進階課之後人生就平步青雲、一帆風順了嗎？那多無聊啊！繼續探險吧！我們不就是來體驗人生的，哦呵呵呵呵。
It’s a pretty long article, maybe you can read it before bed?
A long time ago, (a really long time ago!) teacher’s asked us to share our journey of animal communication learning, from entry-level class to the completion of advance-level class. I recall that I seem to have changed a lot personally. However, in detail, what seems to be missing. Also, at that time, I had no inspiration to write anything down due to myself is kind in a low mood but not in a slump.
While chatting with my friend today, I completed discover that I am not the same person as before.
It was pretty happy to attend the class in the beginning, and expecting to chat and sing with animals like snow white in the forest with no boundary. However, it was complete different.
I would like to ask those still unable to communicate with animals smoothly to let go it now.
I still remember that I was secured myself with strong fence before go to the class. I don’t want to get to know teacher or any other classmates as well. I just wanted to finish the class, learned the skills, and back home practice it myself.
However, it turned out not easy at all. In order to practice the skills with other classmates, I joined the Facebook and the class group.
I am a lazy person. But, in order to chat with my cat by myself, I did whatever teacher taught in the class, as Source Healing, breathing, free will, and free writing. Also keep bothering teacher and classmates by whining about unable to hear animal voices and chat with them as well. I was very impatient. Especially, all my other classmates were doing smoothly, and I had nothing. I am a very aggressive person, can’t stand myself is a slower at start line. (a person who is lazy but also aggressive, as all kind of contradictions of life.)
Soon, I was in the intermediate class. I went to the class to get more skills, and did whatever teacher told us to do after class. Every morning, right after I opened my eyes, I took out the notebook beside my pillow started free writing. Sometimes, I can write something wonderful, and sometimes just doodling. I still felt stuck while doing practice with other classmates, but I never give up. More failure I faced, more strength I gained. I forced myself do lot of homework teacher assigned. One day, there was a dog who gave me confidence but also a big blow. He is my friend’s dog. During the confirmation of the dog’s willingness of communication, because of the dog’s words, my friend told the whole world how super amazing I am.
However, I could not afford to lose, so I started to fantasize that the whole world was laughing at me, and wait to see me failed. After that, I hit the wall for two weeks. During that period, my inner child appeared with tears silently, and asked me why ignore her for a long time. How come there was so much anger and sadness inside me, while I always isolated myself away from outside world with smile.
I remember I experienced many startles and disillusionments while I was little. The world is not what fairytale wrote. The world was full of many regressions, resentments, wrong choices, and self-blaming, which I swallowed all. How did I not know it?
Because of unable to finish assigned case studies on time, I missed the following advanced class. Although teacher made me to wait for a half year to get into advanced class, I am still very grateful for it.
For me, at the beginning, the advanced class was a dream of magic healing class which turned out to be a beautiful illusion. I spent a half year to accumulate study cases, expecting to have a proud numbers and achievements to show off in front of everyone. However, all the case studies were coming with help. I resonated with all my case studies’ life issues. Both of my inner child and I cried and vent hardly. The things I thought already let go, turned out to be grateful in my heart. Those experiences make me glow, and because of it, I can become who I am now, and still with hope. Then, one day, I can hear my cat’s voice suddenly.
Teacher’s said, animal communication skill is a plus for the animal communication class. The truly essence is to find ourselves, which is right.
Focusing on my setting goal too hard and worry too much about gain and loss stop me to see the answers around me clearly. But after really opened my heart and eyes to be aware, it really touched my heart that all the manifestations came so easily without noticed. However, literally how much work did it take for these manifestation to come to me?
All your efforts paid off with 10-times or even 100-times back. All the assignments are designed to help you to understand yourself more, love yourself more, and even healing yourself. The power of healing never a mysterious magic, which has been silently revealed in your effort.
After learning animal communication, I stepped out many steps in my life which I dared not to cross previously. I started to invite friends to my house which might be a trivial matter for people with different life experience. But for me, it was like to get naked in front of people.
Is there any mysterious things happened after advanced class? The answer is NO. Because we are always srounding by miracles and surprises.
Is life going to be successfully and smoothly after advanced class? How boring is! Please keep exploring your life. We are all come to experience it, aren’t we? XDDDDD!
