《動物溝通，然後呢？》
【之一、輕觸動物溝通的迷霧】
從小到大，我的身邊一直都有狗狗的陪伴。
19歲的時候，我開始養自己的第一隻狗，他就是『小可』。
隨著時間流逝，他14歲了，就狗狗的生命週期來說，也到了一個”隨時都可能離開”的年紀。
我有個很要好的朋友，那時曾經問我：「小可年紀有了，妳有心理準備嗎？」而且不只一次。
記得那時的我，聽了總是沉默不語，這樣的事情，我還沒準備要接受，因為我怕。
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“好想知道他怎麼了？為什麼不吃飯？是不是哪裡不舒服？”
“為什麼亂尿尿都講不聽啊？！明明他都知道尿尿的地方…”
“有沒有什麼想做的事情？想吃的食物？或是生活上希望改善的地方？”
“我好愛他，那他愛我嗎？想跟我說什麼呢？”
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這些問題，非常幸運地，透過怡芳老師的溝通，讓我知道小可的想法。動物溝通真是件神奇又美妙的事情。「啊，好想學喔！」「如果學會了，我就可以跟小可說話了！這樣，他有什麼需要我就可以馬上就知道！…他年紀大了，我得更細心照顧他…」心裡默默想著。
念頭在腦海中盤旋。
於是，我開始等待開課的那天。
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八個月後，老師開課了，我是第六個報名的，呦呼，先讚嘆一下！
順口轉頭問了我先生：「你要不要也報名？我們可以一起去上課耶！」我先生想了三秒鐘，淡定的說：「好啊！」填完報名表，他備取。
隔了兩天，收到回信，信裡寫著：「很抱歉，目前靈魂層次尚未準備好…」
蛤？！
「靈魂層次？」這是什麼意思？我不懂，腦袋一片黃沙瀰漫，霧沙沙！
我把結果告訴了我先生，跟他說，我有多麼地失望。
在一旁玩手機的先生，默默的吐了一句：「但我通過了！」
為什麼！！！！！Why？！這樣對嗎？！
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先生上初階的時候，每當下課回來，我就問他：「你可以跟小可溝通了嗎？你們說了什麼？」
我天真的以為，上完課，就能跟小可溝通。
「要給我時間練習啊！」先生說。
「好、好、好，你每天回來都跟小可練習！多跟他說話！」我回，心想：我很有耐心、我願意給他時間練習。
「嗯，我要去做功課了！」先生頭也不回的走了，然後把自己關在小房間清理。
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過沒多久，先生開始了中階為期四週的陪伴課，中間因家裡有事需回鄉下處理而中斷課程。
接著，我們就迎來小可因慢性腎衰竭而離世。
這真的是很大的玩笑。
「欸，小可！明明最想跟你說話的是我耶！我還沒上課耶，還沒跟你說到話耶！你怎麼就走了！！！」內心實在無法接受。
幸好那時在怡芳老師的陪伴之下，同伴動物的離世處理，感到心安許多。
因為我愛小可，我從不介意，他的骨灰擺放在家裡，但他離開的幾天後，我跟先生起了個大清早，天微微亮的時候，將他的骨灰，埋在他生前最喜歡去的公園的樹叢裡，請大地媽媽幫我們照顧小可，我順手撿起身旁一朵盛開狀態下掉落的桃紅色小花，輕輕放在小小土堆的上頭，祝福他的靈魂會轉化地很順利、靈魂自由來去，然後一切都會很好。
而小可的離開，並沒有讓我放下學習動溝的念頭。我開始尋找新家人，結果找了兩位帥哥，當我們的新家人，也正式踏上動溝初階之路。
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【之二、除了清理還是清理】
初階的內容我全部都是第一次接觸，連冥想自己坐在金字塔三角錐裡面，我都要每個步驟一一分解、每個步驟都去想一遍，要很用力很用力，才覺得好像可以。
每個人都有自己的框架要去拆除，而，看不見的框架，尤其困難。
課堂上有些同學侃侃而談他們收到的訊息、看到的畫面、聽到的聲音；初階上完之後，我不認為我有收到什麼訊息，我覺得自己根本是個麻瓜。動物溝通，離我好遠。
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中階，對我而言，更像是個地獄。
但我不曉得當時為什麼會想繼續上，明明初階處於挫敗的狀態。大概是因為：個性上的不服輸，再加上，我拉著我先生，”懇求”他陪我一起上中階。
在這個階段裡，每週都是震撼教育。我開心的進教室，然後哭喪著臉回家。
第一次與內在小孩相遇，照理說，應該是很美的一件事吧！我想像著我內在小孩向我”Say Hi！”、話家常的樣子。
嗯哼，並沒有！！！！！我的內在小孩她直接給我躲起來，還說我把她關在黑黑的地方、不准她出來，所以她很怕我，連朝我走近都不願意，一點都不、願、意！
我好傷心，崩潰大哭，哭不停。
原來我是這樣對待我自己，這麼的不愛我自己，也不願意去面對內心的傷痛，就只是把它藏起來，以為視而不見就相安無事了。
我跟我的內在小孩，最後還要在老師的協助下，才能輕輕握著她因害怕而顫抖的手，而我的手，則是因為悲痛而顫抖。
然後呢，再給我一個重擊的是課堂間的交換練習，腦袋一片空白，完全沒有訊息，掙扎許久之後，我不得不開口說：「我好像沒收到什麼訊息耶。」對著照片中的同伴動物說聲抱歉，感謝願意讓我練習，默默切斷那看不到的連結，清理。
中階走完，無得點，完敗。
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我檢討了我自己。
想了想，一定是「起手式」沒有做好，所以我決定先把根基打穩再說，於是我認真的練習風箱，每天最少基本500下，再加上靜心源療，我常常會累到直接後仰靠在牆邊睡著，然後突然驚醒繼續做源療。
敲敲敲也是，敲到睡著醒來繼續敲。就這樣持續了好一陣子。
這時我觀察到周遭生活似乎有些改變。
最明顯的是工作方面。由於我的工作內容需要接聽消費者服務電話，簡言之，就是客訴電話，客人打進來多半是劈哩啪啦先發洩一頓再說，所以在無形之中，非常直接地接收了對方的情緒，那時候，我內心就會想著零極限的四句話開始不斷清理，結果，客人自己講一講還跟我說「啊，小姐對不起，我知道這不是妳的問題，謝謝妳這麼耐心聽我說這麼多，麻煩妳轉達一下意見」，然後就掛上電話，彷彿沒事一般。
還有，我也觀察到自己的身體，有了不一樣的變化，雖說體重上沒有太大差異，不過拍照的時候，本來浮腫的臉消腫了，持續練習風箱之後，上班的精神也比以前來得好。
這都是因為：停滯的能量以及卡住的情緒開始流動了！
除此之外，我發現我先生做源療的時間都比我短，他一下就做完跑去睡覺了。
我實在很懷疑他有沒有認真清理啊！（捏腰內肉）
於是就問他：「源療怎麼做的？跟上課的順序是一樣的嗎？就是先想像自己在金字塔、往下…、往上…」，我說，我覺得我光想這些就花很久時間了啊！（看，是不是很用力！）
他回我說：「不用這樣啊，妳只要一想＂金字塔＂，它就好了，只要一想＂紮根＂，就紮好了啊！…想這麼多幹嘛！…老師不是說過『能量跟隨思想、思想導引能量』嗎？…」
真是一語驚醒夢中人啊！聽了這番話，我拆掉一個自我設限的框架。
不管清理的主題為何，就是要讓能量流動。
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清理後，準備跨越！
中階之後的清理和練習風箱，至少持續了2~3個月，這時Shenny邀約交換練習，那時我跟仙女說：「痾…我家寶貝讓妳練習就好，我還沒準備好。」
天知道我有多害怕中階的一片空白再度發生！
直到見面的前一晚，洗澡清理的時候，腦海中竟想起「妳是白癡啊！自己沒膽開口找練習，人家找上門來的機會還不好好把握！」
邊洗澡邊哭，被自己的軟弱和恐懼氣哭。隔天見了面，也請仙女先開始練習，最後才硬著頭皮上，然後又自己給自己做了「不知道訊息對不對」的總結。
帶著滿滿的自我懷疑，結果就是繼續停擺。隔了幾天遇到老師，聊了近況之後，得到簡潔有力的回饋：「不是一定要有畫面和聲音，不要跟別人比較。」
好的，我好像發現了什麼：我對自己沒有自信、覺得自己總是做不好…它們的源頭是出於恐懼。清理、覺察，深呼吸提起勇氣去嘗試跨越，一層一層拆掉，其實被這些恐懼、憤怒、憎恨…所包裹著的裡面，都是禮物。
我相信。
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隔了一個月，看到同學在社團徵求交換練習，我終於鼓起勇氣報名。
到了約好的時間，啊呦，真是緊張死了，因為是線上溝通而不是面對面溝通，不然同學應該會被我深鎖的眉頭、蒼白的臉色嚇到要收驚。身份確認搞了很久，不過好像有點進步。
那時的念頭是「錯了就錯了，接受它，再來、再繼續講」。
同學間交換練習的好處是：對方願意給予時間等候、很多很多的支持和鼓勵。
我發現自己是屬於”身體很有感覺、感知同伴動物的情緒”的類型，但不管我收到什麼訊息，我就把當下所感受到的轉化成文字或語言說出。
就在我覺得”每個禮拜一個練習”，這樣的份量很剛好的時候，進階課程開始報名了，我傻了！不要總是開這種玩笑啦！(捧心+深呼吸)個案數五隻手指頭就可以數完，距離開課…兩個月，扣掉農曆春節假期，再扣掉預定的出國行程天數，並且上課前一週要交報告，摁，跟時間賽跑，很刺激。
問題是：敢嗎？衝？還是不衝呢？我豁出去地報名了，開始拼命地做練習，一個禮拜七天，平日白天上班、晚上下班做個案，假日有時候還排兩個。
真的很瘋狂。每次溝通結束，都覺得精神很好！我想應該是因為前幾個月的基本功發揮功效了吧，所以我的身體並沒有太大負擔，不會覺得累，每天可以精神飽滿的去上班。
溝通時，伴隨著同伴動物的情感宣洩，因為這樣，帶動整體的情緒流動，很舒服。所有曾經的磨練，在適合的時間點，都顯化為禮物，然後，我就順利的跨到進階去了！
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【之三、然後呢？】
三天的進階課非常豐富，除了大量的灌入新知識、療癒方式、與水晶夥伴合作…等等，更多的是：大量的清理、大量的流動。進行21天療癒的期間，父親無預警地因中風加上跌傷而住進了醫院，也讓我不再逃避、不再以激烈地反應去處理，而是選擇以更柔軟的方式去面對我與原生家庭的關係。
我明白了，就算再怎麼想為父親做什麼療癒，或用其他的方式去介入另一個生命的自由意志，都是過度的干涉，倒不如選擇「安安靜靜的陪伴」、「默默支持」，我先安住自己的心，就能用穩定的能量給他無限大的祝福。
我小心翼翼地注視、審視我每個發出的意念，也細細觀察我身邊的人事物。進階課之後，人生迎來更多更多的轉變和異動—離職、搬家、拖了大半年怎麼看都看不好的濕疹、寥寥無幾的個案…講到這裡，忍不住要擦汗，呼，這些那些林林總總，這一年來我面對了多少事情呢？好多好多欸！但我竟然”平安”渡過了欸！哈哈哈哈哈哈~~
一直以來都知道自己不喜歡被綁住的工作，所以選擇離職。
搬家雜事一堆，但也滿足了想有個自己的家的心願，也學習到：大方接受愛，才不會吝嗇給出愛。
回娘家清理因為我的「念舊收集癖」而爆滿的東西，用不到、壞掉的、太久遠的，全部都丟掉、送掉或回收。
拖了大半年的濕疹，嚴重的時候奇癢無比，不斷地流湯流組織液，半夜根本睡不著覺，起起伏伏的病情總覺得困擾，後來，好朋友推薦了某家中醫，當我帶著全然的信任去看醫生，並相信一切都會好，現在已經好了90%，我的情緒也不再受到病情的起伏所控制，而能堅定的做我身體的主人。
當個案來到我面前，我不再驚慌失措、也不閃躲逃避，每次聊完，心總是裝進滿滿的愛，很妙的是，有時候還會提點我關於自己的重要事情。為數不多，我頗為珍惜。
回過頭來，我選擇把重心放在怎麼樣讓自己好好生活、開心的生活，愛自己的生活，還有，放鬆的生活。審視每個意念，但卻不再那麼小心翼翼、如履薄冰，而是抓到後就立刻放掉。
我學習這個！不管那些念頭是好是壞、不好不壞，它們其實沒好沒壞，一切很中立、一切也很有彈性。我學習這個！
觀照本心，回到愛的本質，做好當下的事，明天的事，明天再煩惱。我學習這個！
家，是我的一切，是我的根基與起點，照顧好家裡，照顧好我自己。我學習這個！
欸，說到底，我不是來學動物溝通的嗎？
是！！！！！
我學動物溝通，那就先從溝通自己的本心開始吧！然後，人生的路，還很長呢！
#祝福與我相關的人事物地
#祝福每個美麗的靈魂
#感謝怡芳老師的帶領
#感謝同伴動物教我愛
#無條件的愛
《Animal Communication，What’s Next？》[Part One, A Slight Confusion of Animal Communication]I have been accompanied by dogs since young.When I was 19, I started raising my first dog, and he’s “Xiao Ke”As time went by, he’s 14 years old reaching the age of “leaving anytime”.I have a very good friend asked me “Are you prepared for Xiao Ke’s age?” and did not ask only once.I remembered that I was in silence after that, as I knew I was not ready for it yet because I was afraid.
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“I want to know what happened to him? Why is he not eating? Is he not feeling well?”“Why is he not listening to instructions to not simply pee-ing around? He obviously knew where to pee…”“Is there anything he wants to do? Wants to eat? Or anything to improve?”“I love him very much, does he love me? Anything he wants to tell me?”
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I was fortunate to know Xiao Ke’s thought through teacher Yvonne from the questions above.Animal communication is really amazing.[I want to learn!][If I mastered animal communication, I can communicate with Xiao Ke! Then I’ll be able to know immediately what he wants!… He is aged, and I have to be more carefully in taking care of him….] silently thinking. The thought circled in my mind.So, I started waiting for the class enrollment day…….
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Eight months later, teacher’s class was opened for registration and I was the sixth who applied, woohoo!I then turned to ask my husband: “Do you want to enroll? We can go to class together!”He considered for 3 seconds and replied calmly: “Okay!” Registration form filled and submitted.After two days, I got a reply saying: “ Sorry, your soul phase is not ready at the moment”What?!“Soul Phase”? What does it mean? I don’t understand!I told my husband about the reply, telling him how disappointed I was.He was playing his phone beside me, and said: “But I passed!”Why!!!!! Does this made sense!?
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When my husband was attending beginner course, every time he came back after class, I asked him: “Can you communicate with Xiao Ke? What did you both say?”I was so naive to think that he’s able to communicate with Xiao Ke right after class.“I need time to practice!”, said my husband.“Alright alright alright, you practice with Xiao Ke everyday when you’re back! Talk to him more often!” I replied, and was thinking: I have patience, and I’m willing to give him time to practice.“Okay, I’m going to do my homework!” Husband said without turning back and left, then locked himself in a room to do cleansing.
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Not long after, my husband began his 4-weekend intermediate course, but halfway through he had to withdraw himself from class to travel back hometown due to some family issues .And we then came to deal with the death of Xiao Ke due to chronic renal failure.It was really a big joke.“Sigh, Xiao Ke! I was the one who wanted to communicate with you the most! I haven’t even went for class, haven’t even communicated with you! How could you just leave like this!!!!” It was really unacceptable.Fortunately, I felt much peace of mind with the company of teacher Yvonne throughout the settlement of my companion animal’s death.I never mind if Xiao Ke’s ashes was placed at home because I Iove him, but after he’d left for days, my husband and I woke up early in the morning and buried his ashes underneath the bush located in Xiao Ke’s favourite park, asking the Mother Earth to help take care of Xiao Ke, I easily picked up a bloomed pink flower at a side that has fallen off, gently placed on top of the soil, blessing his soul to transform smoothly and go freely, and everything to be fine.I did not let go the idea of learning animal communication after Xiao Ke was gone.I started looking for new family members and found two charming boys, and officially started my animal communication beginner course journey.
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[Part Two, Besides Cleansing It’s Still Cleansing]It was my first encounter for all beginner level’s content, I have to break down to steps and think thorough every step imagining myself sitting in a triangular cone, very hard, to think that I was on it.Everyone has own obstacles/blockage to eliminate. And, it’s even more difficult if you can’t notice what you’re stuck at.Some course mates shared in class about being able to receive messages, images, and hear things; I personally did not think I have received anything after beginner course, and I felt like a muggle. Animal Communication was so far away from me.
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Intermediate level, to me, it was more like hell.But I did not know why I wanted to pursue further because I was indeed frustrated over the failure after beginner level. Most probably was because: I don’t give up easily, furthermore I begged my husband to accompany me to the intermediate level course.During this level, every weekend was shocking to me. I was happy entering the classroom and cried heading home.My first met with my inner child, by right it should seemed to be something wonderful! I was imagining my inner child saying “Hi!”Ah uh, Nope!!!My inner child was hiding from me, and said I locked her in a dark room, disallowing her to come out, so she’s afraid of me, not even wanting to get close to me, not at all!I was so sad, I broke down crying, non-stop crying.So I realised this was how I treated myself, not loving myself at all, and not willing to face my own pain, but instead just hid them thinking everything was fine without acknowledging them.Eventually, with teacher’s assistance, I managed to gently hold my inner child’s frightened shivering hand, and mine shivered too due to sadness.Then, another strike attack when there was an exchange exercise in class, my mind was blank, no messages received at all, I was struggling and couldn’t help but to said: “ I don’t think I receive any messages.” By looking at the companion animal’s photo, I apologised and thanked the companion animal for willingly letting my to practice, then cleansed the insensible connection.I completed the intermediate level course, was completely defeated.
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I took a review at myself.I thought about it, it must be “foundation/base” that I did not do well, so I decided to stabilise my foundation by seriously practicing bellow breathing method, at least 500 times a day, always got exhausted and fell asleep leaning against the wall, and suddenly got awakened to continue on source healing. Same goes for knock knock, knocked till asleep and continued knocking after awake.This continued for a awhile.And I noticed my surroundings had somehow changed. The most obvious change was my job. As I have to answer customers service calls, basically complaint calls, half of the customers called in and will first made noise to release anger. These emotions were then unintentionally but directly absorbed to myself. At that moment, I thought of the four words from zero-limitation and kept on cleansing. As a result, customer said :” I’m sorry miss, I know it’s not your problem, and thank you for being patiently listening so much, please help to convey my comments”, then hung up the phone, as if nothing had happened.Also, I have realised my body had some changes, although there’s not much difference in body weight, but my face tend to be less swollen during photo takings. Continuous practice on bellow breathing, I felt that i’m more energised than before at work.These were all because of the flowing of clogged energy and emotions!Besides, I discovered that my husband’s source healing duration was shorter than mine, he went to bed right after the short source healing .I really doubt whether he really did cleanse seriously! I asked him:” how do you do your source healing? Is the sequence the same as taught in class? Like firstly imagine you’re in the gold triangular pyramid, flow down… flow up”, I said, I felt it was so time consuming by just thinking about it! He replied:” Don’t have to, you just have to think of “gold triangular pyramid”, and just think of “planting root”, you are done!… Why do you have to think so much!.. Didn’t teacher say that “energy follows your thought, thought leads your energy?”What an awakening sentence!After what he’d said, I eliminated one self-limitation in mind.It is to let the energy flow regardless of what topic to cleanse.
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After cleanse, ready to step across!After practicing cleansing and bellow breathing for at least 2-3 months after intermediate level, Shenny invited me for an exchange practice.. I told her “Er, you can practice with my baby, but i’m not ready yet.”God knows that I’m so scared that my mind goes blank again!Until the night before we met, while cleansing during shower, suddenly my mind came across “Are you stupid!? You have no guts to practice, and you don’t even grab the opportunity when people come to you giving you a chance!”Crying out of my own fear and weakness while still showering.The next day we met, I invited Shenny to first practice, then forced myself to also practice with concluding “I don’t know if the message is right”.With much of doubts, the practice ended just like that.A few days after meeting teacher sharing with her my current condition, I got a simple yet effective feedback: “it’s not necessarily to receive images and sounds, don’t compare with others.”Okay, I think i discovered something: I have low confidence, thinking I’m always not doing good enough.. The root cause was fear.Cleanse, self-awareness, deep breath and take the courage to try step forward, eliminate layers by layers, these fears, angers, hates that were all wrapped in me, were actually gifts.I believe.
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A month later, I finally got the courage to volunteer myself in taking course-mate’s request to exchange practice.When it’s at the time of appointment, I was extremely nervous and luckily the communication was done on line instead of face-to-face, or else the course-mate will be frightened by my pale face.Identity verification took a long time, but seemed to have a little improvement.At that time in my mind was “accept it if it’s wrong, try again and keep on talking”. Exchanging practice with course-mates has an advantage: they are willing to give you time, a lot of support and encouragement.I found myself a kind who “has more sensation on my body, can feel companion animal’s emotions”, but no matter what message I received, I will convey the feelings to words.Just when I thought “practice once a week” would be just nice for me, advance level course enrollment was then open, I stunned!Don’t always make this kind of joke please (holding chest breathing deeply)The question is: Do I dare?Push or don’t push further?I went all out and registered, started to do practices desperately, seven days a week, work in the day time, do case studies in the night time, at times 2 case studies during weekends.It was really insane!But I felt good after every communication!I think it should be the foundation/base for the past few months that was playing the role in it, my body didn’t feel much burden, and didn’t feel tired being able to go work with full of energy.Followed through companion animal’s emotions release during communication, it’s very comfortable that it led the overall emotional flow.All the tough endurance will transform to gifts at the right moment, and I was then smoothly proceeded to advance level!
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[Part Three, What’s Next?]A fruitful three-day advance course, besides absorbing massive new knowledges, healing methods, working with crystals..etc, mostly were: massive cleansing, massive flowing.During my 21-day healing, my father unpredictably admitted to hospital due to stroke and fell. I did not run away from it nor handled with much big reaction. Instead, I chose a softer approach to face my family relationship. I understood that no matter how much I wanted to help my dad for any healing method, or other ways to interfere another life’s freewill, it is all over interfering. Why not just purely “accompany”, “support”, calm myself using stable energy to give unlimited blessings.I watched carefully, aware of my every thought, and also closely observing the people around me.After intermediate level course, my life had welcomed more changes – resignation, house moving, eczema that’s been dragged for half a year, very few case studies….Speaking of here, I can’t help but wanting to wipe off my sweats, phew, how many things have I faced this year? Surprisingly, I “safely” went through everything! Hahahaha~~All these while I didn’t know that I didn’t like to be tied up to work, so I eventually chose to resign.Moving house with loads of small issues, but still satisfied my wish of having my own home., and I learnt: accept love with an open heart so you won’t give love stingily. Back to parents’ home to clean up because of my “addiction of collecting” causing stuffed items at home which were all useless, broken, too old. Everything were thrown and sent away for recycle.Eczema that had been with me for half a year, at serious times the itch was unbearable with unstoppable flow of fluid, insomnia, ups and downs sickness that was frustrating, until a good friend of mine recommended a Chinese medicine centre, I sent myself with full of trust to visit the doctor and believed that everything would be fine, now I’m 90% cured, and my emotions are no longer controlled by the ups and downs of the sickness, in order to firmly be the owner of my own body.When cases came to me, I was no longer panicked, also not wanting to hide or run away. My heart was full of love after every communication, and wonderfully at times I was reminded about something important about myself. Not always, but I cherish every time when it came.Come to think about it, I chose to prioritize how to live better, live happier, love my life, and to live relaxingly.Examine each and every thoughts, but no longer so cautious, instead letting it go right after acknowledging. I learn this!Regardless of whether the thoughts are good or bad, there are actually no good or bad, everything is neutral and flexible. I learn this!Back to myself, back to the origin of love, do best at present, worry about tomorrow’s issue after today. I learn this!Home, is my everything, is the base of my starting point, take good care of my family, take good care of myself. I learn this!Well, I thought I’m here to learn animal communication?YES!!!Then let’s start from communicating with my own heart to learn animal communication!My life journey is still a long way to go!
# Bless whatever that is related to me
# Bless all beautiful souls
# Thank you teacher Yvonne’s leadership
# Thank you companion animal for teaching me love
# Unconditional love
